Out With The Old!

Let it burn!

You may or may not be surprised to know that I didn't work on my screenplay today. 

Nope. Not one little bit.

What I did do was rid myself of 15+ years of teenage angst and bullshit in the form of depressing journal entries and sad poems. My boyfriend helped, which I appreciate very much so. It feels like I exfoliated the dead skin and I'm letting the beautiful skin underneath show. I needed this.

The stuff we burned couldn't be thrown out. I had the kind of stuff that was embarrassing in that "for my eyes only" kind of way. I have a shredder too, but it probably wouldn't have given up for pulling overtime.

I had a million notebooks. It was like I had the entire Walmart stationery aisle under my bed! I gladly donated the empty notebooks to the church down the street for any kids who maybe can't afford new school supplies. I only kept enough paper to finish up my summer math class.

As for screenplay, I think this experience will help me. I think I might be Phoebe except for the whole vampire thing. She has to learn to live on less and that's what I'm doing right now. She needs a good full-time job and so do I. She needs to not spend money mindlessly and so do I. I feel like everything I do I can translate to her. I know how she feels because I am her.

I think if you find yourself cluttered with junk, get rid of it! There's no point in keeping it all. Give it away or sell it if you think it's worth money. Just get it out of your space. 

My boyfriend was really happy about me getting rid of that stuff. A small part of me did it for him because I want him to know my past is my past and I don't need to look back on it anymore. The other part of me knew that it was time. :)