I'd be totally lying if I said I haven't been feeling any form of post-grad depression. Yes, I know I made a video talking about how college was ruining my life and how I wished it was over. But now, things are different. I feel as if I spent the last two years crouched on a flotation device in the middle of the ocean, and now it's suddenly popped. I don't know how to swim, so there I am, slowly sinking and unsure if I can take care of myself.
But, in the midst of my ranting and crying and complaining, I've had to stop and remind myself that I should be happy that I have these fears and problems. So, here is an incomplete yet honest list of reasons I have to be happy.
1.) I'm happy I woke up this morning.
2.) I'm happy that I had food to eat and grape soda to drink.
3.) I'm happy I got to spend the entire day online, watching videos and blogging.
4.) I'm happy that I can apply for jobs online, in the comfort of my home, and not have to drive or walk around town to do it.
5.) I'm happy that I have loving parents and a boyfriend that care about me deeply.
6.) I'm happy that I have sight, vision and hearing.
7.) I'm happy that most of fears have never actually come true.
8.) I'm happy that I can list reasons to be happy.
These 8 things are not everything. Not even close. But I seriously get into these dark depressive moods that are hard to shake. I don't like letting it get this bad because it stops me from doing the important things that I should be doing, like LIVING.
What are you happy about?