Monday, November 28, 2011

I'm Lazy!

Yes, according to my mother, I'm lazy. And if she knew I was writing about her online, she'd have my head on platter so shhh!

As of today I have two jobs and I'm a part-time student - hardly what I would call lazy - but I don't cook or do housework so she finds fault with me.

I also never seem to finish anything I start and she reminds me of that every chance she gets...

"Why haven't you finished that story?"

"I thought you said you'd be done with college last year, what happened?"

"I thought you said you were going to clean your room today?"

"How come you stopped making videos?"

"Why didn't you just join the Army?"

I never have answers for her. As my list of unfinished projects grows, so does her disappointment. I feel as if I have become programmed to quit things before I'm done. I mean, who knows if I'll ever post to this blog again...

But that kind of attitude and thinking won't get my anywhere in life, right? Especially if I want to act and write. Those aren't things you can just do for a little while and expect to get anywhere. You have to throw yourself into it, face-first, every day and you can't quit or take a break. Serious people don't quit!

What I'm about to attempt will probably be the hardest thing I ever do in my life. It's my New Year's Resolution and what better time to start than today - right now. I am going to stop procrastinating and finish the things I start.

I'm going to finish college, the three novels I started, and I'm going to write and film a web series. Can I do all this in one year? I don't know but that would be really cool. I don't have a timeline yet. I'm not even sure how I'm going to structure this...but I think a public declaration will keep me accountable. I'm going to prove to my mom (and most importantly myself) that I am NOT lazy and I am capable of finishing other things besides desserts.

So...I've reached the end of this post and I'm not really sure if I'm supposed to say good-bye or see you later. I guess I'll just say see you later because good-bye seems so final and I said I would come back, didn't I?

Are there any other writers out there? Are you guys making New Year's Resolutions? Does anyone else have a mom like mine?


  1. Make sure whatever you do, you do it for yourself!!!

  2. Hey Monica,
    It's me, Tamar--that person from your dance class a long time ago. I want to be a writer, too! Since circa age ten, maybe. I'd love to read some of your stuff sometime. Also what's your writing schedule like (just curious)? I aim for a poem a day and 2000 words of fiction. Still too much of a wimp to start the novel I've been dreaming about and had in mind for a few years.

  3. TAMAR! I miss you!!!! And I don't have a writing schedule. I go by feeling which is bad because then I don't make myself do anything...which is BAD! I used to write poems in high school but they're all about boys who never liked me back, haha! Novels are hard work...I would suggest an outline first! :)


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